Tuesday, January 08, 2008

New Beginnings

Big changes for our family in 2008! First and foremost, here's to hoping we kick any lingering viruses!! Took the girls to the doctor yesterday for rechecks from past ear infections; Livi is clear, Ava not so clear. Another round of antibiotics and Ava should be rid of her ear infection, we're keeping our fingers crossed.

The biggest change is that I started back to work full time yesterday. I decided our family would be better off by my returning to the work force outside of the house. Lots of reasons for this decision, including: I have a career I really enjoy (interior design), I was spending more quantity vs. quality time with the girls, could really use the extra income, etc. My mother also worked when my sister and I were little, so I think that has had some influence too. I completely respect mothers who stay at home and devote their time to their children, but I realize it's just not for me, or our family. Of course I expect a big dose of guilt to come with this decision, but in time I hope to turn those feelings into positive ones. All of the working mothers I have talked to say you will feel guilty, but at the same time they wouldn't change a thing. I would so much rather come home & just play with the girls, vs. trying to play with them while doing the laundry, cleaning the house, etc. It was too hard to juggle, and I wasn't a fun person to be around.

I decided to start back at 30 hours/week; just enough to be considered full time, and so I can come home a little early. For the girls we decided to hire a nanny; mostly due to the fact that Livi is so young and really doesn't need the social interaction (or germs) of a daycare. We still plan on taking Ava to Mother's Day Out a couple of days a week, specifically for the social interaction with other little people her age. We hired a very nice lady to watch the girls; Ava really likes her and Livi warmed up pretty quickly too. Not only was I trying to focus on my role at work yesterday, but I was completely distracted by thoughts of home & the girls. I called, came home early, but everything went pretty smoothly for the first day. Whew....I can breathe a little easier.

More updates, and pictures, to come, but please be patient while we settle into our new routine.

4 comments:

Ione said...

Good luck your first week back! I hope it is a very easy transition for all of you. There is no shame in being a working mommy. You are lucky to have a career you enjoy and if you are happy and fulfilled, you will be a better mommy. I'm sure it will not come without struggles and sacrifice, but you are making the best choice for you! Good luck. Keep your fellow bloggers updated and enjoy your QUALITY time with Ava and Livi!

Anonymous said...

The guilt will go away when you come home and the girls are so happy to see you and you can spend quality time with them. As they get older, they will hopefully be proud of you and not hold it against you! My girls didn't! Good luck honey, it's hard, but it's also a good life and I know you make the best of it!

Angela said...

Gosh, I miss you and the girls so much. Look forward to seeing you sometime & catching up on everything.

Anonymous said...

good luck w/ the transition. i'll be thinking about you. :)